I�ve had an online journal since 2001. Catniptea is the third incarnation of this journal.

The first journal carried me from about March 2001 until March 2002. That was when I realized that my ex-husband was reading my old journal and I wanted to say things that I didn�t want him reading.

So I started #2 in 2002, and kept it up until October of 2005.

At that point, I realized I had mentioned quite a bit of personal information in journal #2 that, taken individually, would mean nothing. But taken as a whole, I worried that people might find the journal. Not because of me, but because of my husband (my current, future and last husband). He�s kind of high profile in his field, and I put some big, flashing pointers to him in the old journal.

So I bailed on journal #2, and started this one: journal #3.

This design is actually my design from journal #2.

Confused yet?

Anyway. I enjoyed my �infertility� theme for the past eight months � it was very cathartic to create the sperm-meets-petri-dish design for this journal. But I was starting to feel boxed-in by the look. Because although my struggle with infertility has been a big part of my life over the past few years, it doesn�t define me � and the label was starting to feel limiting.

So I bailed on the �infertility theme� tonight and went back to my old, contemplative look and feel.