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"In this tempestuous, havoc-ridden world of ours, all real communication comes from the heart." | ||
- Etty Hillesum |
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January 20, 2006 |
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Water, water, everywhere. |
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I feel gross today. Really horribly awfully gross. Way back before all of this fertility stuff started � about a year ago � I weighed 135 pounds. It was a good weight. It suited me. It fit me well. After my first surgery last July I shot up to 145 and never really got below that. I retained a ton of water after that first surgery, and lost it really slowly. By the time I was losing the water, I was taking so many hormones that I was gaining fat. So then with the whole pregnancy thing, with all of the excess hormones in November and December of 2005, I ended up weighing about 153 pounds. Two weeks ago I knew the pregnancy was going to end, and I knew I was feeling like crap. So I started exercising a whole lot. As of Tuesday (the 17th) I weighed 147 pounds. This was good � I was under the 150 mark, I was back in size 10 jeans, and feeling pretty good about myself. Now, today, three days after another abdominal surgery, I�m putting water on again. Today, I weigh 161 pounds. That�s right � I�ve gained 14 pounds in three days. All of it is water, of course. But man, do I feel like crap. And I look like crap, too. And just yesterday I said this whole thing couldn�t get any worse. Geez-a-pete, me and my big mouth! |
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